Engage or Run

“Engage or Run”: Reflections on my Intern Year By Brian Lindman, M.D.

Perhaps the most significant personal transformation of this intern year has been the shift of the fallenness and brokenness of this world from an intellectual apprehension and more theoretical consideration to a monkey on my back that weighs me down, beats me down, taunts me, and dares me to give up and give in. Did I know the world was fallen, cursed, and broken before this year? Yes. Had I experienced it? Yes, but… my experience was far more limited. My life was insulated, with walls around it, protecting me from having to “touch” the brokenness in all its messiness and ugliness. The brokenness I had experienced previously in my own life and the lives of my close friends and family always seemed finite and fixable; it did not seem out of control. Was I wrong to see it this way? Sure, in some sense. Was I blind to the infiniteness of sin even if more “minor”? Probably. But that is not my point here. My point is an existential, internal, emotional one. In some ways, I felt like sin, the fall, and its ramifications were contained. But, over the course of this year, that feeling has been destroyed.

My clinic and inpatient experience is an uninterrupted procession of people with poor insurance, an inability to afford medications, unaware of the seriousness of their medical problems, obese, poorly groomed, smelling, with grandchildren who steal their food, husbands who abuse them, addicted to cocaine, alcohol, or cigarettes, asking for the newest Viagra equivalent to keep up with his 2 girlfriends who don’t know about each other, paging me once a month for a refill on Percocet for chronic pain of dubious etiology, complaining of joint pain while not recognizing that their body mass index of 35 may have something to do with it, letting their blood sugars go unchecked for two years and letting a foot ulcer develop out of control to the point where an amputation is the only option, arrested for drug possession, admitted for an abscess in the groin because there was nowhere else to shoot the drugs than under the skin, not being able to be placed out of the hospital (including to the prison from which he came) because he is such a difficult/manipulative person to deal with, someone admitted from a psych hospital for chest pain where she was involuntarily committed after trying to stab her husband with a knife, a lady admitted with chest pain on the anniversary of her son being shot in the head.

In the face of this, what is one to do? Everything in me wants to run, retreat, disengage, turn off my pager, get these people out of my office or off my inpatient census. I get depressed, impatient, and distant. I get angry at these people because they have so many problems and so many non-descript complaints that I don’t know where to start and I don’t feel like I have the time, energy, or resources to get started. My tendency towards condescension and pride reaches new heights as my

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Hidden Figures: The Untold Story of Entrepreneurial Christians who Shaped the Roots of Western Health Care

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When:
Thursday, May 4
Fellowship & Heavy Hors d’Oeuvres 6-7 pm
Lecture 7-8 pm
Panel and Q&A 8-8:30 pm
Where:
Mike and Linda Curb Medical Learning Center

Saint Thomas West Hospital
4220 Harding Road
Nashville, TN 37205

  • follow signs on our campus to the Seton Parking Garage
  • Take the elevators in the garage to the hospital entrance.              
  • From there, follow signs through the main corridor to the “Medical Learning Center.”

Who: All are welcome!  Students, Nurses, Doctors, Trainees, Family and Friends! 

What: We are co-hosting with Siloam, CMA, SSCD and St. Thomas an awesome new lecture series on May 4. Our first lecture in this new series will be about the history of the church and its role in the formation of Western medicine called Hidden Figures: The Untold Story of Entrepreneurial Christians who Shaped the Roots of Western Health Care. Our speaker will be Gary B. Ferngren, PhD, professor of history at Oregon State University and professor of the history of medicine in the I. M. Sechenov First Moscow State Medical University. He has written numerous volumes on the History of the Church and medicine. Please RSVP below…

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Church History and Med

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Nicaragua 2017

If you have any interest in all in going to Nicaragua with MCF  this summer (Augustus 4-11) please join us at an information meeting on January 10 at 6:30 at Dr. Stack’s home (3109 Acklen Avenue, Nashville, TN). Please join us! In the mean time check out this video from last year’s trip…

https://www.dropbox.com/s/su5tqszkz0pldwk/Nicaragua%20promo%20for%202017_new.mp4?dl=0

Email Brian (briandpugh@gmail.com) if you have any questions.

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Doctors Fail to Address Patients’ Spiritual Needs

Interesting article about Doctors and their (in)ability to talk about matters of faith…

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Nicaragua 2016

Interested in going to Nicaragua this summer on a missions trip with MCF? Here are the tentative details…

But first check out our promo video: Nicaragua Video

Dates: August 5-13, 2016 (see calendar below)

Cost: $1950/person (this will include the cost of the flight, room and board, translators, in-country transportation, medications)

For More information: Email larry.stack@vanderbilt.edu or briandpugh@gmail.com. There will be an application that will be available soon. 

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Busyness (Crazy Busy Summary)

Here is the PowerPoint from Brian’s talk on Monday, August 24.

If you would like to check out the book Crazy Busy by Kevin DeYoung click here. It is worth a read! Click here for the free study guide.

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Welcome to Nashville Presentation

Here is Kate’s Welcome to Nashville Presentation. Enjoy and feel free to email us with suggestions!

Nashville Tour

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